Towards the Creative Understanding of Consciousness: An Autoethnographic Philosophical Account of a Poetess

Knowing thy self is the only relevance that construes the significance of consciousness. Often, poetry is considered as a tool to express inward emotions. But it could also be used as a tool to unite with the Brahmana (the ultimate, the sublime). When the nothingness is the origination, poetry could help us rejuvenate the sense of ???????being ???????that is seeking to get united with the ultimate truth and the ultimate source of sublimity. The abstraction of self occurs within and for that, we need to experience life in this world. This paper would highlight the journey of self that is questing for knowing the truth which is beyond the binaries and worldly constructivism. Although this self identifies itself as a radical feminist yet, it seems the self has transcended towards ???????Virakti Bhava???????? in terms of experiencing itself. It is experiencing catharsis in its relevance while diluting the hegemonies. The more we tend to understand the purpose of life, the more we enjoy the calmness within. The world is in chaos as we seek to divide it and see it as two facets: the self and the others. We tend to forget that we belong to the same universe. As and when we realize, we close the gap between the truth we perceive as truth and the truth that we want to seek. In this paper, the self would reflect on its origins not in the terms of mechanical evolution as proposed by Darwin but it would reflect upon the journey of understanding the ???????Virakti Bhava????????, leading to spiritual mobility. Here, the self is not seeking to pose arguments but is seeking deeper insights into itself. The self becomes a metaphor in itself. It has an identity of a female. Yet, it would try to understand the relevance of twin consciousness regarding merging masculinity and femininity into one soul forming the universal ethos of ???????Prakriti???????? and ???????Purusha????????.